rants and raves

“You should be sure…” was the advice a couple gave us when they were asked what was the best advice they can give as a couple.

i have always viewed relationships like a lottery, you get whatever. but then this couple went the opposite, choosing their own path and clearing their own way.

usually couple on the first year of marriage get a baby. but then their advice was to enjoy themselves first, get to know each other, because when the baby comes the focus is on the baby. when the kid grows up and leaves you will be surprised with whom you are with. you realize you dont know who your better half is anymore or are they your better half?

“you should be sure…” what does it mean? i was trying to understand that. thinking what they meant. i then realized that it encompasses the wholeness of the person. not just the beauty or the brains. but all the small things and in betweens. all the nice and irritating things.

being sure means no matter what happens you stick with that person. being sure means even if all the bad things come out you are still there. being sure means…you are sure no matter what.

mood: sleepy

music: i dont wanna die anymore - new radicals (yeah yeah its old haha)

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birthday parties to me are just a way of saying…"hey its my birthday…i wanna be remembered"…society had put in our heads that our life is just once and we have to make it count…make it worthwhile…make one be remembered…hey im not complaining! its just that its a silly way to be remembered…i mean remembering you each day is way better than one day them receiving an invitation reminding them of your birthday…but really…it sure does feels good that you are remembered at least once a year…

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ^^

point of realization…there are things better kept to yourself rather than be spoken…sensitivity to the other person’s feelings rather than them telling you…

its also harder to say that you’re hurt…you consider the other person’s feeling…the bonding you have had…

its better to patch things up without the affected person telling you that you’ve done something wrong…

i now realize why some people dont tell their feelings…its not that they want you to hope for something…but they need you to be something else rather than what you want to be in their lives ^^

Rain Drops - jp lam

lazily sitting by the window sill

watching as the rain breaks the soil

wondering what to do

on this rainy day

a new dawn breaks

as the light breaks thru the clouds

like my life

with you my God

the darkness once covered my life

the hope came

showed me the way

God lit my way

treading my way thru the wet ground

always looking on to you my God

though i slip and fall

i rise to see you there

i live and let go

seeing only you

living life to the fullest

my purpose is you

she completes me…

like 2 shoes makes a pair…

like 2 blades makes a scissor…

all she does is complete me…

the bracelets worn left and right…

the lacking make full…

in the end these 3 words means…

like the 3 lil’ words…

i love you…

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by jp lam

an article on yahoo stated that ipods and similar devices are being banned in schools for the reason that students use it for cheating…http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20070427/ap_on_hi_te/ipod_cheating

i use my ipod for concentrating…it may sound ironic but silence is too loud for me…i concentrate more while listening to my favorite band…it actually helps me…going back to the topic…id agree to people who say that technology is a double edged blade…it may or maynot be helpful…if they ban ipods or similar devices in schools then people…resourceful as they are…will definitely be able to find another way to cheat…banning things are not the answer to stopping cheating…changes in the heart are…which only Christ can provide…

realization hit me with a fact that i had never seen…i am me…

one thing about talking to people is that you realize things you never see for yourself…if you did then you just try to hide it…denial…

i realized i am still immature… i try to be…unconciously…in my mind the need for intimacy is still lacking…although i have it already…or so i think…

i am trying sooo hard to be in control…even though the situation doesnt call for it…

i am a person easy to talk to…i try to analyze the situation…sometimes i tend to over analyze…which leads to…

i am paranoid…

i dont tell what i feel directly to the person involved…bad cause they wont learn…

i am afraid of people that will be disappointed in me…

i am selfish…trying to hide what i feel…trying to point every bad thing to me…so that people will at least be happy…

i want people to be happy…

i dont like to fake a smile…but really sometimes its needed…

i am me…these things are me…each of these things might be bad…but its me…i try to change daily…its a hard challenge…to change…for the better…

its true when you meet someone…they’ll have an aura…a heart song…you’ll remember them by…whether its good or not…whether its pleasant or not….

a person is first judged by this…so i guess first impressions do last…the intuition, the feeling of a person is there…imprinted in your mind…your heart…then a feeling of nostalgia…engulfs you…whenever you feel this aura..this song…

a question was raised to me a long time ago…what does it take to be a leader?…i never did understand it…but now by being a follower first i realize the importance of being a leader…

i got this from a site:

“A good leader would never ask a follower to do something he/she wouldn’t do themselves. (i.e. Iraq war)
A good follower is one who obeys yet questions when a leader is making a mistake, and is heard by the leader.”

in short a person who gives example and LIVING it…helping people under him to succeed…and motivates them well…sharing the spoils of their toil…knowing that without them he cannot achieve anything…and realizing that without him they would manage…cuz he taught them well…
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“Scapegoats are necessary where nobody wants to face the truth of their own failure…”
- Rosalinda N. Olsen, “The Enemy from Within:The Indolence of the Filipino”

“There is no more precious commodity than the relationship of trust and confidence a company has with its employees. if people believe management is not fairly sharing the rewards, they will feel alienated. once they start distrusting the management, the company’s future is compromised.”
- Howard Schultz, “Pour your heart into it”
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i wouldn’t say that the one who told me this is a friend…well…he WAS…anyways…one day…as i was reading the book of Howard Schultz…he came up to me…saying…hey i read that before…the book is no good…i was shocked!…how can a mere employee of a certain company say such things to the founder of STARBUCKS?!…the biggest coffee chain which started from nothing?…i know people has limitations…and short comings…but judging immediately…without even reading the book cover to cover….is really…umm…hypocritical?!…

music:Chain by Back-On
mood: irritated

i am so irritated at people who needs something but tells somebody else to tell it for them…gah! also people who threatens you because they feel threatened by you though you are’t threatening them…jeez men!? are they paranoid?

another group of people who irritates me are those who claim to dogmatize rules yet they themselves are abusing the rules…or should i say hypocrites?! AAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!! sometimes i really wanna smash the freakin’ books at their faces…haay thank God for His grace is sufficient for me…

*rant rant rant*

anyways there im ok now…i just remembered this story about a book of thank yous…meen i jsut realized that it was really imprinted in my mind to the point i didn’t notice it…(somewhat like walking the thought?)…anyways i better share this before it gets lost in my cloudy head…the story goes with a guy who is very helpful…people keep thanking him…and he writes every thank you in a book…one day he needed money cuz he needs to pay off his debts…so he went to the king for help…the king asked him if there is anything that he could exchange for gold…then he got this paperback book full of thank yous…the king asked him how much should he give the man…the man said he doesnt know…so the king said to bring out the weighing scale…and said to weigh an equal amount of gold…after sacks and sacks of gold came by the book weigh even more…then the king gave the man a lot of gold…

the moral lesson of the story…fill in metal leads in between pages of a useless book…hahaha! kidding…seriously…this story had been touching to me…no amount of gold can replace kindness…kindess in turn is supposed to be free…nothing should be expected in return…or no motives should be hidden in it…

i have recently procured a book written by my “idol”…howard schultz! hahaha kiddn…yea and his principles and ideology had an impact on me…about the building of starbucks…so great…the basic thing is to respect the employee working for you…it is them that you are investing on to give you more money…if you treat them bad then…ha! good luck on ur business…no matter how prestigious your company is…no matter how rich you are…you will fall…also i realized people who lacks integrity are people who will just reach a certain point and never progress…